That little Lego looking bridge in the distance is the causeway. It's not so cute up close.
The first time I drove across the bridge, the kids were with me. Which was good because you're less prone to pass out when you have trusting passengers willing you to remain upright.
"Just bweathe, Mommy," little Abigail offers with her lollipop mouth.
"Look at that PELICAN!" suggests Grayson as if I can see anything but the narrowing of my life before me.
But fear be damned. Before long we are hitting the metal grid of the halfway mark and heading down toward the city. Four more trips just like this and I am a pro.
Until I don't have my cheerleaders with me.
Last Friday, I took the trip solo. As would be the norm with me, panic set in before hitting the toll. Radio off, windows cracked (you know, in case I need to push them down manually - I saw that on Oprah), and heart in my throat, I remind myself to "bweathe."
Not only am I able to breathe, I am also able to have an entire Round-House theater musical on that 23.8 mile bridge. Set to various numbers on the radio. I am the Meryl Streep of The Causeway with nobody but pelicans to see me sweat.
Scene One: Christian singer Matthew West's Hello, My Name is..
"Hello, my name is regret. I'm pretty sure that we've met.
Oh Yeah, we've met alright. And I just kept on walkin! Ain't nobody got time for you, regret!
"Every single day of your life, I'm the whisper inside that won't let you forget."
You might be a whisper, but I'm a ROAR!! RAWR! R o a r. Meow. Aww, I miss my kitty.
"Hello, my name is defeat. I know you recognize me. Just when you think you can win, I'll drag you right back down again, til you've lost all belief."
Ok, yes, I do recognize you too, defeat. And you are one sneaky little son-of-a-gun. BUT I haven't lost all belief so YOU LOSE DEFEAT. YOU LOSE AGAIN HAHAHAHahahahah. Ha! Ha. Hmmm, this song is making me hate myself. NEXT.
Scene Two: Country Boy Dustin Lynch's Where It's At
"It's at 2am when she's reaching over, faded T-shirt hanging off her shoulder. Dressed up, hair down, in a ball cap."
Hey, I do wear a faded T-shirt....although it's not a sexy shoulder hang one. Maybe I should stretch one of my old shirts out for Andy. "Hi Honey. Here's my shoulder. Am I sexy with my Flashdance shirt" HahahAHAHAhhaha. Ha! Ha. I'm hungry.
Scene Three: Rocker Lady Pat Benetar's Heartbreaker
"You're the right kind of sinner, to release my inner fantasy, the invincible winner and you know you were born to be....
be...a what? Born to be a what, Pat? A writer? A vet tech? A teacher? I need to know, Patty...I'd love some direction and advice. What was I born to be?!?
"You're a heartbreaker, dream maker, love taker, don't you mess around, no no NO!"'
I love you, PB. You're more to me than roller skating at Wheel-a-While with Bobby. Who, incidentally, turned out to be a real jerk. And he wasn't that cute. I should've had higher standards. DON'T YOU MESS AROUND WITH ME BOBBY, NO NO NO! [throws one-handed rock and roll horns to the pelicans]
Scene Four: Soulful Sam Smith's Stay with Me
"Oh, won't you stay with me. Cause you're all I need. This is ain't love, it's clear to seee...but darlin' stay with me."
Man, this guy's voice is amazing. Even his breathing is kind of hot. Poor guy, he doesn't need to beg with a voice like that.
"Why am I so emotional? No, it's not a good look gain some self control. Deep down I know this never works. But you can lay with me so it doesn't hurt."
Who wouldn't lay with you if you sang to them? Sweetheart, it's ok to be emotional. But I'd recommend finding someone else. This one night stand has already texted someone to meet her for breakfast at Waffle House. You can do better.
"Won't you stay with me. Cause you're all I need. This ain't love, it's clear to see but darlin' stay with me."
Just sing, baby. You'll find someone at the studio, at the rock climbing gym or maybe Walgreen's. That's how it happens in the real world. You'll be ok. Do you like to hot yoga?
Scene Five: Radio Off To Enjoy Some Silence
Whoah. End of bridge already? That was fast.